I just can’t help but be sentimental this time of year. When I think back to how this year has progressed I have mixed emotions. On one hand, I have had my heart broken by losing two friends in car accidents this year, broke my foot, had cancerous skin cells, had a car accident and totaled my car (not my fault!), and swine flu… but on the other hand I had my most favorite birthday ever, learned how to wakeboard, been to a million amazing concerts, got Elton John AND Steven Tyler’s autographs, and made lots of new friends. I should be graduating in May, but I won’t until next December, which is okay with me, but I wonder how different things are going to be in a year from now. I absolutely love my life, and I am so blessed to have so many amazing friends and family. Looking back, I think 2009 is one of the most memorable year I’ve had. It was a hard one, but I believe it all made me stronger.
I also have a feeling 2010 will be amazing.
Black Betty, my new car, is a 2010
and I’ll graduate in 2010….
Maybe I’ll fall in love too.
It’s all happening. <3
Make a list of things you need, leave it empty.
Except for number one.
Write: Love- gamble everything.
I always liked the term “turning on, tuning in, and dropping out”
I figured it had to do with listening to music and forgetting about the world…
but I just found out it’s about male masturbation.
—and that does not apply to me.
The longer that I’m out here the better you sound
You’re scrunching up your face in this picture I found and
I’m chasing after you, steadily losing ground
I don’t wanna forget so I’m writing it down
Have you ever? No, never never?
I find that hard to believe
Now let’s burn the furniture
To see how angry a fire can make me
And you say that there’s someone that you need to reconnect with
Some scarecrow from high school that you loved but never slept with
A baby with a pipe dream playing hopscotch on your bandages
And I’m singing all his songs while I sleep on your couch
I’m coughing up a lung but I’m covering my mouth and
I paint you on the wall
Yellow, red, green and brown
I miss you all the time but I’m blocking it out
Are you better? No, never never?
What does that say about me?
Now let’s break the smoke alarm
To see how scared locked windows will make me
So you say there’s a stranger staring sideways in a deep freeze
A loner draped in ivy playing slumlord in his city dream
A faker with an art form pulling magic tricks on the weak girls up his sleeve
And I’m choking right along with the words in my throat
I’m falling back in love with the letter you wrote and
I think that I was wrong, but I guess I don’t know
I figure that I’ll wait until you tell me so
The longer that I’m out here the better you sound
You’re scrunching up your face in this picture I found and
I’m chasing after you steadily losing ground
I miss you all the time but I’m blocking it out and
The longer that I’m out here
The longer that I’m out here
The longer that I’m out here
The longer that I’m out here the better you sound
hey boom boom… I really wish I could call you right now… I wish I could hear your voice, and I wish it was all a bad dream. I miss you everyday… but for some reason today is really bad. Just little things remind me of you. I don’t even want to sleep in my bed because thats where you slept. And I don’t want to leave my house, and I don’t want to talk to anyone, and I just want to talk to you and I cant. I am really trying to be strong but I am not doing so well of a job tonight… I just wanted to know that I loved you a whole whole lot. Love Hun.
I’m thinking about getting my MFA… What the hell am I thinking!? Hahah…
