I just can’t help but be sentimental this time of year. When I think back to how this year has progressed I have mixed emotions. On one hand, I have had my heart broken by losing two friends in car accidents this year, broke my foot, had cancerous skin cells, had a car accident and totaled my car (not my fault!), and swine flu… but on the other hand I had my most favorite birthday ever, learned how to wakeboard, been to a million amazing concerts, got Elton John AND Steven Tyler’s autographs, and made lots of new friends. I should be graduating in May, but I won’t until next December, which is okay with me, but I wonder how different things are going to be in a year from now. I absolutely love my life, and I am so blessed to have so many amazing friends and family. Looking back, I think 2009 is one of the most memorable year I’ve had. It was a hard one, but I believe it all made me stronger.
I also have a feeling 2010 will be amazing.
Black Betty, my new car, is a 2010
and I’ll graduate in 2010….
Maybe I’ll fall in love too.
It’s all happening. <3
Make a list of things you need, leave it empty.
Except for number one.
Write: Love- gamble everything.
I always liked the term “turning on, tuning in, and dropping out”
I figured it had to do with listening to music and forgetting about the world…
but I just found out it’s about male masturbation.
—and that does not apply to me.
The longer that I’m out here the better you sound
You’re scrunching up your face in this picture I found and
I’m chasing after you, steadily losing ground
I don’t wanna forget so I’m writing it down
Have you ever? No, never never?
I find that hard to believe
Now let’s burn the furniture
To see how angry a fire can make me
And you say that there’s someone that you need to reconnect with
Some scarecrow from high school that you loved but never slept with
A baby with a pipe dream playing hopscotch on your bandages
And I’m singing all his songs while I sleep on your couch
I’m coughing up a lung but I’m covering my mouth and
I paint you on the wall
Yellow, red, green and brown
I miss you all the time but I’m blocking it out
Are you better? No, never never?
What does that say about me?
Now let’s break the smoke alarm
To see how scared locked windows will make me
So you say there’s a stranger staring sideways in a deep freeze
A loner draped in ivy playing slumlord in his city dream
A faker with an art form pulling magic tricks on the weak girls up his sleeve
And I’m choking right along with the words in my throat
I’m falling back in love with the letter you wrote and
I think that I was wrong, but I guess I don’t know
I figure that I’ll wait until you tell me so
The longer that I’m out here the better you sound
You’re scrunching up your face in this picture I found and
I’m chasing after you steadily losing ground
I miss you all the time but I’m blocking it out and
The longer that I’m out here
The longer that I’m out here
The longer that I’m out here
The longer that I’m out here the better you sound
SO— I freaking saw ELTON JOHN last week! He signed my goodbye yellow brick road album too!! It really means a lot to me because I have grown up listening to Elton John and that album was given to me by my mom when I was younger. I have listened to it a million times…. and the coolest part of the album (besides having Elton’s signature!) is this huge butterfly sticker inside the cover that my mom peeled out of the hotel window that my mom and dad stayed at the night of their honeymoon. I actually cried because it meant so much to me!! I’ll never forget that night for as long as I live! I am seriously SO LUCKY. Paull seriously made my life complete by taking me to that concert, and I will never ever be able to thank him enough!
For some reason I have had “This train don’t stop there anymore” on repeat for the last couple days… no idea why. It’s actually a pretty depressing song, and I am not depressed at all!! Haha! God I love Elton John.
I’m ready for this semester to be over. Only 48 days left, but who is counting? I’m ready for SUMMER. Today was the first day of spring, and I hope it doesn’t get cold again between now and summer…
I am ready for summer, however— I have made some pretty awesome friends this semester and I actually like going to class. I told Gary the other day I never wanted to graduate. I seriously love him and Denny and don’t know where I would be with out them… and MISTY! The other day she suggested that I go on to graduate school, come back and teach at RSU so I can eat lunch with her everyday! Haha!
The truth is, I am just kind of scared of graduating. I don’t know what I am going to do… and I LOVE DESIGNING!! Seriously dude. And I think the job pool is kind of thin in that area… actually I think the job pool is pretty thin everywhere! Oh well, I plan on shooting weddings for as long as possible… although, that’s NOT what I want to be known for… but I enjoy it, and it pays the bills. Tim Bonea, asked me to shoot some weddings with him this summer, and I am looking forward to that… pretty badass.
I guess I made this post a little longer than I expected. I blame it on insomnia.
