29th
Live in the NOW
When we have expectations we end up disappointed, but when he just let things happen we are always surprised.
You know how every time you plan something, and it all goes wrong and you are very disappointed, but then sometimes you don’t have a set agenda and you just go with things you always have a better time?
It seems that way with really good friends… like aren and meagan recently. Usually when we plan something (arens birthday, Painting night) it doesn’t work out the way we planned. But on days when we just do whatever and just hang out, it seems like those are the absolute best days.
I think this is something I really needed to learn sooner, because I used to get mad at my friends like kevin who I used to hang out with all the time. And now when I try to hang out, it feels forced, and then I am sad because it wasn’t what I wanted.
I really need to learn to live in the NOW. Not the past, nor the future. Of course it is always good to learn from the past, but being obsessed with the past is never a good thing. I can think of someone, who I shall not say, that is completely obsessed by her past. She dreams of her past everyday… even wearing an old wedding ring that represents nothing but her broken marriage. On the other hand there are those of us who get excited about something that is soon to come; concerts, weddings, movies, weekends…. I do this very very very often and I need to stop. Because it’s awful when you wait 2 weeks for something and when it happens it doesn’t meet your expectations.
I always found it funny that people could make memories before they even happened.
I feel stronger than I ever have felt in my life.
Everyday I wake up and just let things happen with an open heart, because like I always say, you only live once.
